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wings​/​back

from Boy of the Year by MEDUSA

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The second half of the soliloquy, from our other character’s perspective. This song is about my hair. Are they about to compare their hair to Lucifer’s wings? Yes, I am.

For a long time, I wanted my hair back. I stopped cutting it. I tried to compensate for it being short by presenting more femininely. I felt like my family would think I wasn’t the child they wanted. I felt like if I made myself look the way I used to, I could undo who I am and go back to ‘before.’

This track is about wishing for my hair to come back because it feels like that is what it will take to ‘go home’ - but there is no 'going back to before,' when 'before' was only ignorance, and you can't un- enlighten yourself. So, will there be a home when I get there? If I take too long to figure myself out, and hide the whole time I am trying to, I risk alienating everyone I love. so would they even be there, when I got 'back'?

In reality, it never mattered if I had hair or not. “Are they really about t to say because they’ve always been them, underneath” - yes. I am. I’m a little sorry to be corny (but not sorry enough to not say it.)

lyrics

When I get back
Will you still be there
Know you wanna be, wanna be
So I guess that’s on me
And how long I

Take
Hey are you still awake
Think I made a mistake
Gotta shed like a snake

Something in me makes me wreck shit
All the time, I wanna wreck shit
See a button, gotta press it
Blow it up, slip out the exit

Something in me makes me wreck shit
All the time, I wanna wreck shit
See a button, gotta press it
Blow it up, slip out the exit

And I’ll
Crawl
Back one more time
Before the fall

To smile
Dissolve
And make you mine
Before you’re all
Gone

When I came out, all my privilege left in a moment
Like you push out breath when you’re moanin
And I never really noticed how much nicer people’d be
Til I cut off all my hair and lost invisibility

Now I go to different stores so the men don’t glare
Say don’t call me 'them' because they don’t care
Now, wonder why it seems
Like a different kind of suffering

Beggin

Come out, come out to me
Come out, come out into the light
Come out, come out and breathe
Come out tonight

But
Am I gonna get stared at?
Kinda makes me wish I had my hair back
Wish so bad I didn’t care man
Kinda makes me wish I had my hair back

You'll be asleep before my night's done
When I get back
Will you still be there
Know you wanna be, wanna be
So I guess that’s on me
And how long I
Take
Like you pull in breath when you're yawning

And I’ll
Crawl
Back one more time
Before the fall

To smile
Dissolve
And make you mine
Before you’re all
Gone

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from Boy of the Year, released March 9, 2020

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MEDUSA Buffalo, New York

Medusa is a "revenge pop" musician based in New York. They're pretty sure they subconsciously stole calling their music "___-pop" from their friend Zand, who coined "ugly-pop," but it's way too late in the game to undo it now.

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