i saw god in the waiting room

from Prequel [Allegory of The G​/​rave] by MEDUSA

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2020-2021

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took your mom to her appointments
watched the doctors like a cop
like a good son, but your mother
said please don’t quit your job
so you worked through all September
then I don’t remember much
just her grave, conflated holidays,
and then it’s blank for months

think my hair was pink on New Years
didn’t want it, just felt restless
bleached it in and out the bathroom
so you’d look up from your desk and
then we sat in our apartment
didn’t like it, but pretend to
cooked you dinner every night
and said I hoped we’d see our friends soon

I turn to look at the door
(whenever the house settles)
god, I wish that you'd come home
(so we can be together)
but you don't come home anymore
not all the way, no

back in August, heard you promise
by September you’d be out
it’s October now, these people’s names
spend more time in your mouth
than I do, wonder why you
never look at me the same
while my hair gets overgrown
like all the grass around her grave

saw my family for a wedding
"if you’ll come, bring work, it’s fine"
spent the two days seeing emails
reflected in your eyes
and I lie awake and miss you
and I work until I can’t
then I fall asleep, eventually
you wake me up
with coffee in your hand

I turn to look at the door
(whenever the house settles)
as if when you do come home
(we're gonna be together)
but you don’t come home anymore
not all the way, no

and, I saw god in the waiting room
yeah, I saw god, he was waiting too
he hung my jaw like a crucifix
and, oh god, I've been waiting ever since

I watch lovers turn to numbers
through the screen they use to praise me
been two years without a sunburn
"yeah, I’m so busy it’s crazy"

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from Prequel [Allegory of The G​/​rave], released November 4, 2022

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Medusa is a "revenge pop" musician based in New York. They're pretty sure they subconsciously stole calling their music "___-pop" from their friend Zand, who coined "ugly-pop," but it's way too late in the game to undo it now.

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