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Boy of the Year

by MEDUSA

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Finding heaven Finding heaven Beat the hell out of you Beat the hell out of you Beat the hell out of you Beat the hell out of you Rise in the fall Alhamdulillah Lilith was a rock And now we don’t gotta talk to you Oh my god They got em in their jaws Got the un deux trois Let em swallow their hurrah Or slaughter me, Leviticus Tattoo in my mouth proclaiming I don’t have my innocence Take me down in increments To punish me for insolence Hate me for the clay Let the dirt make me infamous Think you put me in a predicament? Think that you’re really so omnipotent Ipse dixit, I say you’re wrong I came to quit, alhamdulillah Do you know my lyrics Or are you just kinda into me Want my hole-y spirit I’m a mirror of divinity You’re made in my image But ignore my masculinity Bi’s beyond your limit And I’m already a trinity U-G-L-Y, turn the sun up til you fry I’m hungry, yeah yeah, I’m hungry H-U-N, G-R-Y, turn the sun up til I fry I’m ugly, yeah yeah, I’m ugly Alhamdulillah Baby I’m a pisces Fishing for the right breeze Hook me into you and then you Throw me back to spite me Spare me all your crises Swimming through your psyche I don’t wanna do the work Cause you don’t even like me Finding heaven Finding heaven Beat the hell out of you Beat the hell out of you Beat the hell out of you Beat the hell out of you I was free, I was giant Loved the way that it felt Oh to be, always flying Til the day that I fell U-G-L-Y, turn the sun up til you fry I’m hungry, yeah yeah, I’m hungry H-U-N, G-R-Y, turn the sun up til I fry I’m ugly, yeah yeah, I’m ugly I guess I’m free now You hear that quiet ring You’re gonna see now That baby, I’m the pirate king
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Are you done now Rat rat rat rat rat Woohoo Rat rat rat rat rat Bang bang bang bang bang Sucker It’s all true, i’m the worst Cry about it, how it h-h-h-h-hurts Run around saying birth is a curse Til inert in the dirt, Man, I’m so overworked And now you’re so ungrateful You said your plate’s too full But your plate’s full Mama made you so disgraceful No seat for you at the table Si te vienen a contar cositas malas de mí Diles que sí, que yo te dije que sí fui Si te vienen a contar cositas malas de mí Diles que sí, que yo te dije que sí fui Si te vienen a contar cositas malas de mí Diles que sí, que yo te dije que sí fui Si te vienen a contar cositas malas de mí Diles que sí, que yo te dije que sí fui Sucker Rat rat rat rat rat Rat rat rat rat rat Bang bang bang bang bang Rat rat rat rat rat Rat rat rat rat rat Bang bang bang bang bang Sucker Si te vienen a contar cositas malas de mí Diles que sí, que yo te dije que sí fui Si te vienen a contar cositas malas de mí Diles que sí, que yo te dije que sí fui Si te vienen a contar cositas malas de mí Diles que sí, que yo te dije que sí fui Si te vienen a contar cositas malas de mí Diles que sí, que yo te dije que sí fui Sucker Are you new here, boss I’ve been here since the lights came on Are you new here, boss I’ve been here since the lights came on Brand new match wanna strike, flame on But I’ve been here since the lights came on Brand new man wanna fight, game on But I’ve been playin since the lights came on
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They grinned like a cage Mind a left shoe on a right foot body Worsened with age Slipping like shadows each page Got a brain like a match Spark and then hatch and then burn down softly Age and it's worse No tyrant's castle's complete without a curse And nothing comes out of the gate But tales to make children behave They fail to keep people safe Keep the bull close Cold as the clouds hope That the beasts will coven in their grave And if the castle that no one knows Will sink under the king's toes When the sea comes to greet him And punish his greed If I'm not the man will I go Huh I think this body’s ugly I’d rather be a tidal wave L-u-c-k-y lucky Don’t wanna eat I hate the game I think this body’s ugly I think the grin looks like a cage L-u-c-k-y lucky Don’t wanna be I hate my name Yeah? oh no Ugh Yeah? okay Ugh Everything is usually easy for me What’s all of this bullshit I don’t wanna do it Everything is usually easy for me Crashed here on a comet You make me want to vomit Everything is usually easy for me What’s all of this bullshit I don’t wanna do it Everything is usually easy for me Prison for a goddess Binding up colossus Stigmata matters, mama Man, do my palms hurt I don’t wanna be madonna I am a monster Turning trauma into dogma So I can conjure Devil out of dalai lama’s Honor to conquer You I won’t do What you do Unless you do it to me first Y’all know we got that groove Let me see your body move Ah-oo, ah-ah Oo oo, ah-ah ah-ah Yeah, oh no Ugh Yeah okay Ugh Everything is usually easy for me What’s all of this bullshit? I don’t wanna do it Everything is usually easy for me Prison for a goddess Binding up colossus I won’t do What you do Unless you do it to me first Y’all know we got that groove Let me see your body move Ah-oo, ah-ah Oo oo, ah-ah ah-ah I would make mistakes to restart Really bad ones I would drive a stake through my heart If I had one I would make mistakes to restart Really bad ones I would drive a stake through my heart If I had one I think this body’s ugly I’d rather be a tidal wave L-u-c-k-y lucky Don’t wanna eat I hate the game I think this body’s ugly I think the grin looks like a cage L-u-c-k-y lucky Don’t wanna be I hate my name You got an empty fuckin head Like a parliament Recessed like the filter Call the blank space opulence You think that confidence The opposite of consequence Switch can't top But your drop falls, bottomless Heaven, between, or to hell I'm nonmonogamous And baby, oh gee And then oh well, you're done Regardless
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Sit down Sit down Sit down Sit down I threw out my Con-Air I threw out my lipsticks If i still had long hair Would I get the good shifts? I was by the pool I still had my shirt on I was feelin cool Til they put the hurt on Lady E and the T E E and the and the and the E and the T E E E and the and the I don't get it And the T E E and the and the and the E and the T E E E and the and the Listen lady Listen lady Listen lady Listen lady I was at the hospital I was getting blood drawn Saw my biological Then I saw their smile gone I was at a table Writing in my serve book I mentioned my partner Then I got a weird look Okay Lady know you're rocked Because you don't know what you see But can you please stop Looking at me like I'm ET Lady know you're rocked Because you don't know what you see But can you please stop Looking at me like I'm ET I don't get it E and the T E E and the and the and the E and the T E E E and the and the And the T E E and the and the and the E and the T E E E and the and the T T T T I'm not what you see I'm not what you see Tell the lady Sorry and I'd love to stay But you're not even gonna call me by my name Sorry and I'd love to stay But you're not even gonna call me by my name I thought you were trans Well I am, that's the Lipton Woman or a man G-ddamn I'm a cryptid Turnt off the E and the T That I'm sippin You don't like me, baby Keep your distance Lady know you're rocked Because you don't know what you see But can you please stop Looking at me like I'm ET Lady know you're rocked Because you don't know what you see But can you please stop Looking at me like I'm ET I'm not what you see I'm not what you see
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You don't even trust yourself Whachu want, whachu want Whachu want baby I'm the flesh, I'm the blood I'm the one, whachu want I miss feelin excited Something's gone or something's lost And I find myself hiding Something's off or something's wrong The way the air used to smell I'd cut my hair and I'd feel new But now I'm too tired to tell What I wanna do What I wanna do Keep making food Put it back in the fridge Because making it scratches the itch I've got no appetite You don't wanna see me on a bad day This is only halfway Wait until the switch Clicks Trust us, trust us This time's for real I know how to fix how you feel Trust us, trust us This time is different I can make you happy Just listen I could say I wanna do it Cause I'm going through it But what does that do I used to love to turn to it And use and abuse it But then I found you It's funny how the hell Makes me feel like myself Makes me feel like myself Makes me feel like myself It's funny how the hell Makes me feel like myself Makes me feel like myself I feel like myself
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im gd thx 04:46
Tilt back your head and fucking take it Goddamn Fucking take it Tilt back your head and fucking take it Fucking take He We used to love each other He Or so we said He Oh, baby, you got me workin Got me workin for you nine to five Oh, baby, you'd be the prettiest You would be the prettiest of brides Oh, baby, what a waste now You don't need to but I want inside If you're slippin out of body Can I slip between your thighs Oh, baby, this isn't workin Know that you're eating yourself alive Oh, baby, you were so perfect It's a shame about the shit inside Don't know what you think happened But, baby, you can still turn this around I think it's all the fakin Tell enough and lies will start to drown you Oh what a waste, what a waste What a waste, what a waste What a waste, what a waste Would you tell god to do his job Right to his fuckin face? Oh what a waste, what a waste What a waste, what a waste What a waste, what a waste You think it's wrong But you're in outer fuckin space Tilt back your head and fucking take it Goddamn Fucking take it Tilt back your head and fucking take it Fucking take Ease my way Why you gotta tie yourself to this Ease my way Can't you cut it off and let it go Walk around the lake A couple times before we jump in Say you wanna feed the fish You might be onto somethin Oh, shit, fuck I think I need a hit Oh, shit, fuck Because my body doesn't work right Oh, shit, fuck C'mon and gimme it Oh, shit, fuck C'mon and gimme it Oh, baby, you got me workin Got me workin for you nine to five Oh, baby, you got me workin Got me workin for you nine to Gimme it Gimme it Gimme Fuck a comeback kid I’m the come out kid Better hold that cap Cause im flipping lids Know you dig my kicks Cause I run this shit I’m a heart attack Watch me stop that Yeah I know I got a box I’m not taking suggestions Tell em get the strap Not talkin bout a weapon You know either thought It’s best to get protection And you like me a lot So why you feel threatened Maybe you’ve forgotten where I came from Breadcrumbs Leading to the witch’s house to get numb Free buzz Beating through the forest just to get home Oh no Bleeding both your forces like my two bone Logo I’ve been waiting all year long Now you’re gonna get it Heard what you told everyone You’re gonna regret it Blaming me for everything Now I want my credit Fallen one’s god’s favorite son And don’t you dare forget it
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Whoops I got tired of it Always thinking I would hit and miss Know you miss me Cause of what I did What a pity I don't give a Know you miss her I got tired of it So I killed her Reconcile with it What a city Know you miss when I was pretty What a pity, pity I got this feeling on a summer day When you were gone I crashed my car into the bridge I watched, I let it burn I threw your shit into a bag And pushed it down the stairs I crashed my car into the bridge I don't care Baby, I can't be your Fantasy factory Think maybe That's the reason you're mad at me I'm sorry That you felt like I had to be I won't be Your fantasy factory Tell me the truth, baby Tell me the truth, honey Tell me the truth, darlin Tell me the truth, baby Don't you think I'm pretty anymore Don't you think I'm pretty anymore Don't I get you going anymore Don't you think I'm pretty anymore I got this feeling on a summer day When you were gone I crashed my car into the bridge I watched, I let it burn I threw your shit into a bag And pushed it down the stairs I crashed my car into the bridge I don't care Baby, I can't be your Fantasy factory Think maybe That's the reason you're mad at me I'm sorry That you felt like I had to be I won't be Your fantasy factory Tell me the truth, baby Tell me the truth, honey Tell me the truth, darlin Tell me the truth, baby Don't you think I'm pretty anymore Don't you think I'm pretty anymore Don't I get you going anymore Don't you think I'm pretty anymore Kiss my ass
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But all homosexuals are not passive Some resort to violence Sh Ay, ay How you doin Ay, ay Whachu need Ay, you're Goin through it Stand up Make em bleed Sh, sh, guys, guys, guys Uh, uh, Yeah, yeah, yeah, so My ex still feels bad When you beat it where my tonsils be I don’t know why they’re mad Cause they cheated on me constantly They lied to me a lot About lying horizontally But that’s all been forgotten Cause now I got autonomy And I get whatever I wa-wa wa-wa want Don’t let it ha, ha-ha-ha ha-ha-ha-ha-ha haunt me, no I get whatever I wa-wa wa-wa want In the back and fa-fa-fa Fa-fa-fa-fa-fa front, yeah Wanna get high Swallow your fears Burn out your eyes Blow out your ears Wanna get high Swallow your fears Horrible guy Boy of the year I’ve been in the mirror thinkin I should cut my tits off We were never heat or I’d care That that makes your dick soft You could never spear her Now you’ll hear him getting pissed off Tenderize your meat, corkscrew I’m a twist off Say I’m still a babe and even though And watch me ice across I can code in python But I don’t care for your micro-soft Your dick see the future, dude Then pull out your kaleidocock And okay computer No surprises when I don’t defrost I don’t care If you hate my hair If you fuck with me You’re aware I should make you scared That’s enough for me I don’t care If you hate my hair If you fuck with me You’re aware I should make you scared That’s enough for me Wanna get high Swallow your fears Burn out your eyes Blow out your ears Wanna get high Swallow your fears Horrible guy Boy of the year Sh Ay, ay How you doin Ay, ay Whachu need Ay, you're Goin through it Stand up Make em bleed Hear that loud that makes your ears hurt That's the sound of gloves comin off See that flag that makes your eyes burn Waving now, then stuck in your boss I’m not your kept bitch, I’m the Boy of the year Not your, dream girl, I’m the Boy of the year I’m not your, mistress, I’m the Boy of the year Yeah, I’m the whole world, I’m the Boy of the year I’m not your girlfriend, I’m the Boy of the year Uh, I’m the president, I’m the Boy of the year Today’s my birthday, I’m the Boy of the year Today’s my first date, I’m the Boy of the year La da, da-da-da da La-da, da-da, da da, da-da da-da La la-la da-da, da-da da-da La-la, da-da, da-da, da-da da-da
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king me 04:17
Come to see me Love the light that you're bathed in You can be me I'll be you, and then there's him Come to see me Love the light that you're bathed in You can be me I'll be you, so are you in? Let's trade identities, turn off the lights I'll pray to your god and you pray to mine Curtains split and the lights stab, yuh Half beer drunk on the nightstand, yuh Sorry to the guy, he's a nice man, yuh Not my type but his wife's bad Know the blinding light of cities burning Closer fire's brighter than the sun Someday planned on otherwise returning But I never see the ruins in the dark Born on the solstice Sharpen the edge between seasons with both fists Torn and my soul splits Splinter to being insulted by both sets Blood made of water Wine made of blood made of food made of dollars Why do I bother Can't buy my freedom so fuck it I'll barter Let's trade identities, turn off the lights I'll pray to your god and you pray to mine I'm a better woman than you, I'm a better man Curtains split and the lights stab, yuh Half beer drunk on the nightstand, yuh Sorry to the guy, he's a nice man, yuh Not my type but his wife's bad Know the blinding light of cities burning Closer fire's brighter than the sun Someday planned on otherwise returning But I never see the ruins in the dark No, I never see the ruins in the dark
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famous 02:28
We don't fuck with you or your friends no more We don't fuck with you or your friends no more Know your favorite artist is the greatest Shame that it came out that he's a rapist Separate the art, you can pick it apart, but When he comes to town, are you gonna say shit? We don't play it We don't play that shit We don't play, bitch And I don't give a fuck if you're famous We don't play it We don't fuck with you or your friends no more We don't play that shit We don't play it And I don't give a fuck if you're famous I know what you did and what you are Play it I know that you would if you were me Play that shit I know what you bid and what you want Play it I heard what you said on the TV Play that shit Play it I know that you would if you were me Play that shit Play it I heard what you said on the TV Play that shit I know what you did and what you I know what you did and what you I know that you would if you were me I know what you did and what you I know what you did and what you I heard what you said on the TV Play that shit Play it I know that you would if you were me Play it I heard what you said on the TV Play that shit Know your favorite artist is the greatest Play it Shame that it came out that he's a rapist Play that shit Separate the art, you can pick it apart, but Play it When he comes to town, are you gonna say shit? Play that shit We don't We don't fuck with you or your friends no more We don't We don't fuck with you or your friends no more
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Be careful, the ass that you’re kissing Sits high on a throne of their lips Be careful, the boots that you’re licking Aren’t gonna taste bad as the fist But would you consider it winning When really you wasted your wish For someone who’s tired of swimming You sure wanna sleep with the fish Bring me your roster Bring me a sign Make me an offer Call me divine I’m Benedict bootlicker I’ll eat your loose slipper Know you wanted saving But you got me I am the suit picker I’ll pick which fruits picture Ends up on the pavement with roses in the street Cluck cluck then I learned They can’t eat me if I eat you first Cluck cluck They can’t eat me if I They can’t eat me if I eat you first They can’t hate me if you’re the worst They can’t eat me if I eat you first They can’t hate me if you’re the worst I was a surly little fucker With my pearly teeth Until somebody popped a sucker Just to buck and bleed And then before he threw another hit I rolled my molars, tongue, and spit And begged him if I clucked and snitched Would he leave me Alone Now I lay me down to sleep Don’t need to pray for your defeat The shit you talk you’re gonna eat If you keep licking boots You’ll get kicked in the teeth Benedict bootlicker I’ll eat your loose slipper Know you wanted saving But you got me I am the suit picker I’ll pick which fruits picture Ends up on the pavement With roses in the street
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longlong 07:09
Slow Slow down to reach me Slow down to reach me Weigh down your feet Why Why don’t you take it Take just a second I know you can’t For you and me Well so it goes I hope you know I wouldn’t have been mad I'd lick you like a rudder licks the sea And build myself from spit and sand But What’s a pirate to a ghost And why’s the ocean beat the land And who would own The stones I stacked Together Just to call myself myself a man And my hunger seemed to vanish, Like the sea through my sieved hands Dreamworld moments after waking Back in ours Wouldn’t anybody famished Drink the entire atlantic For the salt to brine the the sweetness That we soured Why Why don’t you take it Take just a I know you can't All I ever want to do Is make you feel as loved As I long to be Every gesture makes my hands hurt Don’t leave Me empty All I ever want to do Is make you feel as loved As I long to be Every gesture makes my hands hurt Don’t leave Me empty All I ever want to do Is make you feel as loved As I long to be And I long to be
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wings/back 07:26
When I get back Will you still be there Know you wanna be, wanna be So I guess that’s on me And how long I Take Hey are you still awake Think I made a mistake Gotta shed like a snake Something in me makes me wreck shit All the time, I wanna wreck shit See a button, gotta press it Blow it up, slip out the exit Something in me makes me wreck shit All the time, I wanna wreck shit See a button, gotta press it Blow it up, slip out the exit And I’ll Crawl Back one more time Before the fall To smile Dissolve And make you mine Before you’re all Gone When I came out, all my privilege left in a moment Like you push out breath when you’re moanin And I never really noticed how much nicer people’d be Til I cut off all my hair and lost invisibility Now I go to different stores so the men don’t glare Say don’t call me 'them' because they don’t care Now, wonder why it seems Like a different kind of suffering Beggin Come out, come out to me Come out, come out into the light Come out, come out and breathe Come out tonight But Am I gonna get stared at? Kinda makes me wish I had my hair back Wish so bad I didn’t care man Kinda makes me wish I had my hair back You'll be asleep before my night's done When I get back Will you still be there Know you wanna be, wanna be So I guess that’s on me And how long I Take Like you pull in breath when you're yawning And I’ll Crawl Back one more time Before the fall To smile Dissolve And make you mine Before you’re all Gone

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Boy of the Year, the coming-of-gender LP, is an experimental dark-pop album by Buffalo artist Medusa. It is their 3rd fully realized album to date.

While first and foremost dealing directly in the complexities of self discovery and queer identity, it is also a concept album.

The allegorical narrative follows a falling-out between god and Lucifer, god's favorite son. After Lucifer's fall, he becomes bitter and resentful of his 'privilege' as the king of hell.

God sees this and, like any parent, seeks to teach him a lesson. God binds Lucifer to a human form, charging him with the responsibility of somehow, by the end of his life, remembering his celestial heritage.

By abstracting the experiencing of learning who and what we are into tales of legend and grandeur, we more easily tell our truths.

This album has influences from, but not limited to: hip hop, metal, math rock, dark pop, rap, nu disco, power ballads, alt r&b, post-hardcore, choirs, cheerleading chants, dub, synthwave, and straight up pop, baby.

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released March 9, 2020

ALBUM ART: Casey McSherry

SAMPLES FROM: Frank Carter, Heavy Heavy Low Low, Iconapop, Taking Back Sunday, TTS Reader

ALL COMPOSITION, INSTRUMENTATION, VOCALS, PRODUCTION, DESIGN, MIXING, AND MASTERING, BY: Medusa

SPECIAL THANK YOU TO: The WNY music scene, for advocating for me, no matter what, and showing me nothing but unconditional excitement and support, whatever form I take. My mom because she is the best mom (sorry other moms). My dad for teaching me to play piano as a young child and for writing a book speculating about whether or not jesus was an extra-terrestrial, giving me the inspiration to reinvent this album. Casey Mcsherry for holding it down since day one. My partner who is so perfect sometimes i think he is a mirage. Every friend I've ever had. Every gay there ever was.

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MEDUSA Buffalo, New York

Medusa is a "revenge pop" musician based in New York. They're pretty sure they subconsciously stole calling their music "___-pop" from their friend Zand, who coined "ugly-pop," but it's way too late in the game to undo it now.

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